I am thinking..Thinking if the things i have been doing is wrong or right.I am really lost.Just hate this fking feeling.I thought i have been happy and no more worries ahead as i have found my goal in life..getting my cert..taking good care of my dad..But now..i am stuck...everything seems to vanish.My goal just cant be reach..I feel like giving up..I had been struggling so hard since my mom left..since i left my place..since everything had happened.i need a shoulder to cry on..just feel so hurt when i closes my eyes...

Instead of feeling motivated and encourage..i just feel so fup.U aint solving everything..Because of  you..i have to ask my friends for help.I just hate all the empty promises...You shouldnt have promise if you cant do it..I dont want to give you stress..I try to believe and trust you..but why aint you putting yourself in my shoe?If you cant do it for me..dont ask me to do it.Dont even think of taking it at the first place..see what happens now..have you think of the consequences?have you ever really think how would i feel?you aint proving to me..why say things i want to hear and not do things i want to see?

Enough of blah blah blah..perhaps i am just feeling too emotional..
When can i really get what i want?I am sorry for hurting people whom really care..
those that really treated me well..I really know..i do..Perhaps,i just dont know how to express my gratitude.

I cant c whats ahead.

So tired..