've always been the kind of girl That hid my face So afraid to tell the world What I've got to say But I have this dream Right inside of me I'm gonna let it show, it's time To let you know To let you know
This is real, this is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now Gonna let the light, shine on me Now I've found, who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I want to be This is me
Do you know what it's like To feel so in the dark To dream about a life Where you're the shining star Even though it seems Like it's too far away I have to believe in myself It's the only way
This is real, This is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now Gonna let the light, shine on me Now I've found, who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I want to be This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you, I gotta find you You're the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you, I gotta find you
This is real, this is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now Gonna let the light, shine on me Now I've found, who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I want to be This is me You're the missing piece I need The song inside of me (this is me) You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing Now I've found, who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I want to be This is me
January 22, 2011
I will forgive those that i hate. I will forget those that i hate. I will give trust to those people who deserve it. I will not let you down again and again. I will be a good girl from now onwards. I will not make you shed again. I will treasure everything that i have. I will not ask for more. I will make my life happier than before.
Looked at the time now!i m still awake!the pain is excruciating!i cant walk normally.cant Put my stupid kneel straight.i felt like it was more like an accident than fall. Is nt the external that hurt-the skin came off.yes!thats how freaking gross it can be.but is nt about the external injury.my kneel is now super swollen.the side of it is bloody blueblack!and the bone~ah fuck it!
all the care and concern.thanks=)really appreciate it.. my weekend was Omg.Lying on bed like some criple-,-
Yes,i sounded way too over.But really pain!both external n internal! never felt this way b4=(nw,feeling so hungry..cant even go out buy supper.damn shit!
stupid!i wont wanna get drunk anymore.is a nightmare!
I did felt the tears you shed for me. SoRRY for everything.i am not heartless.silly.. i want to get well soon! jia you!=)
SHIT
January 13, 2011
Today is a moody day.Very moody.I dont know why.life just sucks.sucks.sucks!I am think I am going insane soon~i dont understand what is happening around me.I just hate it.really!just FML~i thought i can live happier and be more positive towards my fking life.BUt hell's ya,Crap!Yes,ppl around me care so much for me!i know.truly appreciated it so much.But i know each of them have their own stresses too.I have neglacted some of them.Didnt know they have their own problem yet still pouring care for me.Showered me with love.Not wanting to stress me up and not sharing their problems with me.I think i am so fup.Guess i have to be more considerate for others.Please people,tell me your problem when you have one.Dont have to worry about me getting stressed up.Theres no different for me.just tell me alright?Perhaps, i wont be able to help you.But i can be someone whom listen.someone that able to understand your thought.Alright?
Ps:yah.bad morning today.super no mood for work.perhaps,i have spoilt your mood too..i am such a loser!crap!siian ah~~~really sad!=( i dont wanna talk about it... i wanna go crazy soon...
pls kill me!i jus wanna die...please leave me alone.let me go bang the wall!
Ate Thai Express.One of my friend's birthday=)Happy belated!Came down to lunch with me.Swee!Got home And took nap.I want to meet my gf,my turtle's kakis!my everyone!
Turkey-i want to SU GU!=D i really need your help.Dont forget what u had promised me=S
This mrning got a prank joke frm Uncle Ling.Not funny!=X Thanks ah.You really got nth better to do.xia shi wo le lah!i tot it was real..idiot..ahhh!stop fooling me.hahas.nonsense.irritating!arghhhh~sHIT YOU!!still can laugh.you can go be actor alright?hahs ALIYOS! Good Night!
So many people yet so little space-.-but!we still had our fun=Di love my people=)theres more photos..but lazy to upload.perhaps,next time bah.
she's late!But still as steady as ever=)
our miss charise wore BLACK!stupid girl hahahas.
Had fish curry before heading down to bq.was super full lah!hahs.we ended with many many bottles of drinks and beer=)Went to eat supper after that.zai bo?hahahas.all of us were having so much fun despite of the crowd.felt like we are in the club because we had to stand!But thats no big deal,we had fun.friends are there and all the laughter we shared had ease us down=D
may it be a better year=)
memories are hereby ours.
super emo.thanks for being there and comfort me.appreciate it.i felt so much better.is time to end all those emo shit.just feel so hurt.i was speechless.sorry that i couldnt voice out.but you were tere and lend me ur shoulder,i sense it.thanks.i will try to control myself.
02.01.10
Went to watch "little fockers"
funny~!nice comedy=)
Something pai seh happened.ahhh!at tampiness bus-interchange.
shock of my life.pai seh xia.hah.heng i managed to resolve in time..hahah.wah!stop laughing can?
For the very first time,i wanted my year to end it fast! fast! fast!All my nightmare please go away~i hate you! Imissmom=(but i feel love from people around me.They never give up on me,showered me with surprises,care and warmness. Perhaps i dont know how to express my gratitude,but i really sense it and thanks!=Dwithout you guys,i am nobody.
My life have been up n down,even till now. it just CANT be peaceful.But i know i have you guys helping me..my burden has been reduced.
I lied. I am not okay.I feel stress.depressed. I hate my sisters. I misses my nieces and Dad. i miss my mom=( I want my old life back.
Impossible. I have to stay positive. People around me Loves me. They want me to be happy too..
I want H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S
Thatsmyresolutionfor2011.
Simply that.Nothing else.
Go away 2010!Go away nightmare... I hate you!
I want everyone around me to be happy as well.Because i know it will be painful if they are me.It hurts. Please.. Eitheryouendtheworld,all just create more happiness for us.
Although some had left,but it nv fails to bring us back 2gether!
xchange=) wheres our christmas tree!!?
Crazy time in the ladies!hahhas
Updates!
Wednesday-Zouk
omg!theres so many people!irritating!hates it!arghh~
hao lah!i wont do it again!dont angry liao.Smile~
Thursday-Xmas's dinner with Rong,turtle,and Angel!
Super crazy night!went to eat durian at geylang in the middle of the night!i love them!every year without fail,we will have our xmas celebration=DLove ya!
Xmas is finally over.
Hope the presents tat i have prepared for all of you did brought a little smile to your face=)
I hereby,thanks all the gifts that i had recieved.
Beautiful regards from all the lovely peeps=)have a Great xmas this year!
Yesterday was a BOOMZ! celebrated at MBS.Our dearest YC Birthday!Happy 21st christmas Baby!U looked so beautiful..may you stay sexy and hot always!muahhas.
Gift xchange was fun!Great!hahs.Everyone were laughing and giggling!So crazy! and we drank quite abit and left at 3 am.. The place was so beautiful!.Omg!
Gonna go!will update more!have many many photos to upload. didnt take any with my hp.LOLX!lazy!muahhahas.nvm.wait for my dearest to upload!
I had your promise.
December 20, 2010
Tired!!
woke up very early.530am?Had the best breakfast In the morning,yes!is just magee mee..but!i simply love it!=)
Love is a noble act of self-giving,the more you give,the more you lose part of you.Yet,you do not become less of you,but you end up becoming complete.
I am contented.
I am Silly.
Smile Baby~
December 13, 2010
=)
December 7, 2010
I need a DRINK to :
-Drown my SOrrow -Celebrate with Joy
Oxymoron? yah!i think so too..*Faint
Ladies night with my dearest Sisters tmr! Club!oHHHhhhhh alright,lets party and drink till drop...
I had enuff.
I shall stop my Life is sucks.
There's always sunshine after the rain isnt it?Happy or sad,Life moves on.There's neverending obstacles,Neverending fear,neverending dilemma...isnt it?
perhaps,i should be ecstatic that i have people who truly cares,always there for me..right?I promised to be good,promised to look after myself...and i will.silly=D
Things happen for a reason.Sometimes,not within our control.thats life isnt it?stupid.sucks.how i wish i am someone who can gain control in everything,life will be perfect.so perfect that rainbow colors are everywhere-so beautiful.
Whats the matter with regretful,mistakes,forgiveness...
people make mistake.But sometimes,theres always no second chance given because it hurt so much that no one can withstand it again.
But how miserable the person will feel if there was no second chance given?how lost will they get?do they deserve it?perhaps.
And whats with the hinting?whats with the crap?why dont you be direct?Trying to be someone nice but it freak me out.
Thanks for your beautiful advice.Is so helpful...
what am i talking about?shit.just feel crap.so many things had happened.Above statement is just random wordings=)
You broke my trust again. I pin hope on you. but is a neverending story.
You didnt chase..you let me go. I know it shouldnt have happen.
perhaps,there wont be any chance. but nothing changes. dont you agree?is still the same. i dunno who you are.i tot i know you.You broke my heart.you left me hanging.i am left to fight the battle.i wont count on anyone.because i dont wan.i dont trust anyone.i dont..really dont...
dont ask me what happen. this is what i want. dont question me because...is the past.
I feel so helpless. I dont know what else i can do.Life just sucks to the MAX.No mood for anything.Next week i am flying off.I dont have the holiday mood. I am really clueless.Lost.I feel so heart pain.Cried.Whats wrong with it?FML!I cant sleep but i am so tired.my mind just cant stop thinking..It wont let me rest.It just wont..
October 21, 2010
Met up with turtle and rong. *Love
has been months since we had an outing together.I enjoyed myself so much..things have changed so much,all the heart to heart talk..maybe turtle was right,lets move on to a happier us=) Jia you kaes?Rong and turtle and ME!lets fight for what we want,just rmb theres always friends and love one that cares.. we are all steady sister=)turtle..you are our sister forever okay!have more courage to fight for what you really want!have more confidence!we will always be there for you=))
lets meet up soon okay=)
20 more days... *counting down..
October 19, 2010
Work?Very bad!miserable..*those who work with us will understand our difficulties.Sometimes i really dont understand,we are all doing the same job but why does others earn so much more than us?one thing i am certain is that we put in more efforts than them!Do you think is fair?N-o.
*Life is Unfair.
W-a-t-e-v-e-r
life?
sucks to the max.
i dont know how to move on...i dont know what else i can do.
Everything i do= Wrong
Perhaps, ignore is the best policy=Wrong
telling the truth= Wrong
keeping quiet= Wrong
Wrong!wrong!wrong!!!
Who cares?
Why bother?
Why?
I dunno.i am crazy!**Good night shitty world!
October 16, 2010
My fb got deactivated! my msn got bLOCKED!
now i feel so lost n bored with no access to my internet world.
LIFE IS CHAOTIC FOR ME.
why cant it be simpler?
tell me.
October 2, 2010
AH!
I just dropped my iphone4!
hahas!
BLOG?
omg.super lazy lah.My daily routin-FB!
hahahs.
please add me at FB-
i just simply too lazy to blog=)
*will be back=D
September 12, 2010
A Millionaire's First Love
Do you know why they close their eyes when kissing?
Because they're so dazzled by each other.
In that short moment with my eyes closed..
I will miss you.
Super touching show.
Eh,this girl is dying..and the boy gave her all the love he could give to bring her happiness..